a truer version of myself

“If something inside of you is real, we will probably find it interesting, and it will probably be universal. So you must risk placing real emotion at the center of your work. Write straight into the emotional center of things. Write toward vulnerability. Risk being unliked. Tell the truth as you understand it. If you’re a writer you have a moral obligation to do this. And it is a revolutionary act—truth is always subversive.” Anne Lamott

I sometimes wonder if I’m supposed to own a yoga studio.

Those surrounding me are so invested in the asana practice; they live it. It’s admirable. But I don’t.

I mean I do and I don’t. I don’t practice asana everyday. I practice asana closer to one time weekly. I also cycle and enjoy sprint workouts. I’m a junkie for a physical challenge. Asana is something that I utilize, and it is not part of my daily life.

Other pillars of yoga are a part of my everyday; Yamas ( ethics + integrity), self reflection and spirituality (niyama) I read lots of literature (Jnana ). I practice concentration and meditation (dharana), and I teach my clients ways to, too. I teach breathing techniques; I practice yoga nidra several times a week independently.

Yet, 3 SISTERS asana offerings don’t necessarily reflect how I live my life; and sometimes that feels ingenuine. Questions surface for me: What do I want 3 SISTERS to be? How much do I want it to feel more in alignment for me? And how willing am I to risk placing real emotion at the center of my work? So here I am.

In the fall and beyond, my goals include offering a platform for self-growth and evolution. I am eager to share, (and mildly nervous and feel minorly responsible) for bringing group dialogue into our special community. We are MOVING the energy, but how do we integrate it? Additionally, what more can we offer that invites the physical challenge junkies like myself to find more of themselves in our space?

Selfishly, I shared with Courtney, I’m in a time in my life where very little feels like mine. I work in office space that it utilized by others, I share a home, and cars. So when Courtney approached me about bringing in movement that lights me up, (like lunges, yep, they’re pretty great); My initial response was “ I want something that is just mine for now.”

But, what we resist persists. And it has. So, starting in mid September I will be teaching a class that includes some yoga but also some of the wonderful parts of my physical activity that makes me feel more like myself when I finish. Motivating music, feeling my muscles work really hard, and going with what calls me. I also plan to continue offering workshops that promote connectivity through dialogue and self-study. I have committed to a 240 hour program on Compassion Inquiry, a technique that I hope to utilize in my professional and personal life; I am saying yes to being a truer version of myself.